I’ve always been interested in mystical things. I love reading my horoscope. I love to research about what makes a Leo tick. I’ve recently been diving into what it means to be a number 4 in the enneagram. My most recent trip down Mystical Lane has lead me to a Tarot card reading.
I was recently invited to a Tarot open house. I immediately said yes. I had 0 hesitation. I’m in this season of life where things are so in the air. Nothing is concrete just yet so I’m constantly looking for that little bit of validation that I’ve made the right choices and everything will work out the way it should. Enter Tarot.
I chose to put my cards in the “A Play With Surprises” formation. I chose 7 cards. Here’s a breakdown.
Card 1 is the known side of your past. I chose the 3 of Wands. This represents inner balance and the energy one needs to take on a great adventure. Make your move and sort out the details later. For me, I didn’t have to dive too far in my past to relate to what this card was telling me. Deciding my marriage wasn’t working; that was my inner balance. Moving out on my own; that was making my move. I’m still sorting out all the details but it’s certainly lead me on a great adventure.
Card 2 is the unknown side of your past. I chose the 10 of Cups. This card signifies family and an emotional safety net. Family doesn’t just mean those related to you. Family here signifies your chosen family, those you choose to surround yourself with. But my card was initially upside down. For me, this card represents personal rejection. It means someone has to make the first move, leaving judgement behind. This is something I struggle with every day. Have people fallen out of my life since my own situation has changed? Yes. But have I also strengthened other relationships because of my own changing situation? Absolutely.
Card 3 represents the present; what is here right now. I chose the 5 of Cups. “Loss happens on the material plane. Yet what truly belongs to you cannot be taken away.” We interpreted this to mean focusing on the potential of what is to come. Don’t dwell on the mess.
Card 4 represents your present; what will come. I chose the Page of Wands. This card represents freedom, a fresh start, and not making compromises. For a mom going through a divorce, I think this card is pretty self explanatory…in the best way. I’ve had this taste of freedom and independence. It’s liberating and wonderful. Now is not the time to compromise my own happiness.
Card 5 represents your present plan for the future. I chose the 8 of Cups. Initially, I thought this card looked really sad. It shows 8 cups stacked upright and a man walking away into the dark. To me, it looked like someone walking away from a good thing into the unknown. We interpreted this to mean vulnerability. I might feel afraid and unsure most of the time, but I must look within to understand that it’s ok to feel a bit hesitant. A part of me might be resistant to healing.
Card 6 represents the future as something unexpected. I chose the 3 of Cups. This card is all about opening up and letting the world see what you have to offer. I just started this blog. We have our podcast. I’m literally opening up my heart and mind on a regular basis for the entire world to see. It’s terrifying sometimes. But this card says to expect and accept new offers. This all ties in with my new found freedom and the permission I’ve given myself to be open and creative.
Card 7 represents a surprise and stunning possibilities. I chose The Hierophant. I didn’t like this card at first. It features a very stoic, religious man sitting straight backed in a chair. It represents religion and an established set of spiritual beliefs. If you know me at all, you’re probably scratching your head. I know I was. But if you look at this card combined with all the others I drew, I think it might represent a sticking to what I know and going with my own flow.
To sum it all up I’ve never thought of myself as a very courageous or brave person. I know what I want but I’m also very afraid. I’m apprehensive when it comes to making decisions (honestly, who isn’t?). Putting this blog and our podcast out there is terrifying. Making the decision to end my marriage, to rock the societal boat and be a working single mom is terrifying. This Tarot reading gave me all the validation I didn’t know I needed. I’m doing the right thing. I’m on the right track. The whole experience brought me to tears. More than tears, I was full on ugly crying. I was so moved by what I heard. Maybe I didn’t realize what I was seeking but I think I found it. I’ve had to summon up loads of courage over the past year to make such huge life changes. And I did it. I’m still terrified but I’m so brave. Maybe I don’t believe it when people use that word to describe me but I believe it now. It’s in the cards.
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