Episode 3!

Here it is…episode 3 of Authentically Audra and Emma. On this episode, we go off on all the tangents. We recorded this one exclusively in Audra’s car. We decided at 6am to go to the 9:30am slow flow class at Full Circle Yoga. We had two very different experiences. I’ll speak on mine…

I love slow flow yoga. It’s the perfect class for me. Slow, intentional movement. But today, I had the WORST time getting out of my own mind. I’m always stuck in my mind but 60 minutes of yoga usually kicks me out of it. Not today. Not even a little bit. I wasn’t even thinking about real things. I was making up narratives in my head about my evening. It was a good evening. But the moment my mind was even a little bit quiet, I started to go off the deep end of over analyzing every little bit. And Audra totally called me out on it during this episode.

But why? Why is this happening? There’s nothing wrong. I’m just making shit up. This is what happens when my mind is quiet or when I’m bored. And right now, I’m bored.

Clearly, the Abilify is not working. So now what? Back to the drawing board. And that’s another frustrating thing about mental illness. It might work. It might not. You might have to adjust your dosage or change meds or find another combination of ones that could work for you. That itself is daunting.

Even this…blogging. Sometimes it’s therapeutic and sometimes (like right now) it just kind of makes you feel worse.

If you’re feeling bummed out by me (sorry), go listen to our podcast because it’s actually funny.